I (30F) experienced sleep paralysis cuddles for the first time
This happened to me last night. I was sleeping at the edge of the bed on my right side. I’d taken 10g of melatonin and a nello if that’s relevant.. idk. But I felt someone get into bed behind me and run their hand down my cheek and cuddle me from behind. I didn’t feel frightened, more surprised and kind of eased into it at first. As I realized that I’m home alone I tried to wake myself up by trying to sit up. I only got so far because I was disoriented.. I couldn’t quite make my eyes open? Or focus? Idk. I remember thinking of the melatonin and realizing I’m probably fucked. So I laid back down. After a minute I felt it again, someone in my bed. I turned around to face them without opening my eyes. I remember cupping their face but I didn’t open my eyes because I knew no one was supposed to be here and I didn’t want to startle myself with what I might see as I’ve experienced “regular” sleep paralysis before. I felt hair. I put the cover over their face and peeked and saw hair. A dark dirty blonde maybe brunette, in the light of the tv. I woke up again but was instantly back facing the edge of the bed, sensation gone. I closed my eyes again and again it came back. They spooned me again. Arms over and under me and this time I could feel their face on the left side of my face and their hand holding mine. It was a loving sort of embrace that really made me feel safe honestly. After a minute, I reached up because my neck/back of my head began to tickle (happens to me sometimes) and I felt someone’s hair as I said, “it tickles”. I snapped awake, eyes open and sensation instantly gone.
I’ve been searching the internet since. I think it’s also relevant to state that I’ve been dealing with a pretty traumatic event the past few days. My family doesn’t live close and honestly this is feeling more and more like I just needed a hug.