Rant!!
I turned 25 this year, and I already feel like I've failed.
I was always the topper in school. I was the student teachers pointed to as an example. I had big aspirations, a clear plan for my future, and, honestly, I was probably overconfident because I had never really experienced failure.
After 12th grade, I enrolled in a professional course, and now I'm finally in the last stage. This is my third attempt, and I'm confident that I'll clear it this time.
But when I look back, I can't stop thinking that I did this to myself.
If I'm being completely honest, I know I would have finished this course two years ago if I hadn't become lazy. I stopped studying consistently, took things too lightly, and kept postponing things.
I feel like I wasted two years of my life.
The strange thing is that I know I'll probably be fine. I'll most likely complete the course this year and start with a handsome salary
But that doesn't change how I feel.
I can't stop comparing myself to the version of myself I thought I'd become by 25.
Instead of feeling excited about finally reaching the finish line, I feel disappointed, guilty, and behind.