u/ChristHemsworth

I have a year left of school and I actually hate nursing. The future of healthcare is so bleak and it's incredibly clear that management doesn't give a shit about us and we will constantly be under-resourced to do our very important and stressful jobs. I've been a CNA for over two years and a nurse tech for about 6 months. Maybe I've just worked a lot over the summer and I'm burned out but as soon as I get my degree, I'm gonna start taking classes for engineering or something because good lord, this field is not looking good. I'm in a privileged position cause I have scholarships to pay for all of my schooling and some of my living expenses. If this weren't the case, things might be different and I may feel trapped/pressured to do this for much longer.

Still thankful for all I've learned though. I'm glad I know for sure that nursing ain't for me.

Edit: in the post, I state that I will finish my degree and work as a nurse and THEN take engineering classes. But at least I know right now that this isn't for me and I need to find a way out.

I'm really really sad about this. I can't even muster up the energy to be angry. I've worked on the same specialty unit for 3 years as a CNA and this whole time I've been in school. I have one more year of school left. Because it's a big job, I value work-life balance, and I'm very careful about how I'm perceived in professional settings, it's hard for me to make small talk because in my life outside of work, I'm a dirtbag lol. Unhealthy habits. Not put-together. My main hobbies are NSFW. Plus, I really am very busy and it's hard to manage social expectations from coworkers and small talk on top of everything else.

I look up to these nurses. They're able to handle a lot and I've seen them do wonderfully kind things. Everyone I work with knows I'm in nursing school btw.

The other day, I overheard four nurses talking about me wanting to become a psych nurse. One of them said "yeah you've gotta be a little psych to do well there so you know what it's like" and everyone laughed. I felt so small, like a kid getting bullied in school.

And I guess I'm just really sad. I work hard. I've been nothing but professional to these people. And still, they've found something to hate about me.

Just here to vent ig. I'm really really sad about this. I can't even muster up the energy to be angry. I've worked on the same specialty unit for 3 years as a CNA and this whole time I've been in school. I have one more year of school left. Because it's a big job, I value work-life balance, and I'm very careful about how I'm perceived in professional settings, it's hard for me to make small talk because in my life outside of work, I'm a dirtbag lol. Unhealthy habits. Not put-together. My main hobbies are NSFW. Plus, I really am very busy and it's hard to manage social expectations from coworkers and small talk on top of everything else.

I look up to these nurses. They're able to handle a lot and I've seen them do wonderfully kind things. Everyone I work with knows I'm in nursing school btw.

The other day, I overheard four nurses talking about me wanting to become a psych nurse. One of them said "yeah you've gotta be a little psych to do well there so you know what it's like" and everyone laughed. I felt so small, like a kid getting bullied in school.

And I guess I'm just really sad. I work hard. I've been nothing but professional to these people. And still, they've found something to hate about me.