I'm so tired
Tired of being totally isolated.
Tired of planning every second of my life around airborne precaution.
Tired of the tiniest screw-up being a potentially life-altering event.
Tired of being stuck living with vax-'n-relax housemates and having to schedule my entire life around theirs to avoid exposure.
Tired of being stuck inside for days on end because fatigue, sensory issues, and ailments of age make it too exhausting to mask every time I step outside and then keep masking inside until my air purifiers have run for long enough.
Tired of having no break from this.
Tired of having practically no meaningful support from governments or public health institutions.
Vacation won't help, there's no way I'll ever feel safe or relaxed.
I can't therapize my way out of material circumstances.
It's been six long years and the light at the end of the tunnel still feels so far away.
I'm just tired.