Scared and want to get off meds
I'm apparently 'bipolar' and have been going through a ton of meds recently after manic episode in April. It was really scary but I had been awake all night driving 17 hours and was heavily using kratom and buspar, so I can't be sure what the actual cause was.
I was started on Olanzapine which was an actual nightmare and caused severe anxiety that it was supposed to actually help with it.
I'm now on Seroquel and have tapered off the Olanzapine, I take Lamictal in the mornings and have never had much issue with it.
Anyway, this morning I got a terrible pain in my heart briefly and I am terrified now. I know it's one of the meds I am taking. I want to go off everything so badly but of course my psych and my parents are vehemently against that.
I think I'm going to quit taking my meds, this heart thing has me so scared. Can I get some encouragement/success stories? I've cut out all nicotine, alcohol, and caffeine and have been working out daily. I hope that total sobriety will fix my issues and avoiding meds will save my heart.
Thank you for any comments.