Post-3 survivor thought
After the GoodOmensPrime account finally shut down, I realized that in fact, I had actually been traumatized : D.
It came as a bit of a shock, because I thought I handled it pretty well. It took me about three weeks to get Season 3 out of my head. I don't accept it as canon, which allows me to still enjoy the Ineffable idiots, but ever since the premiere, every time I’ve stumbled upon anything related to S3, those feelings from back then– the sadness,the bitterness, the sense of hopelessness, and above all, the pain, (that (thanks to s3), I was able to experienced as physical for the first time in my life)– would come flooding back.
It feels as if someone were deliberately hurting me, over and over again, and It’s really surprising, because I’m not someone who gets emotional easily; in fact, this is the first time I’ve ever experienced anything like this.
And I don’t feel angry about this, but it hurts all the more, the more a certain work (official or fanmade) accepts or praises the harmful messages of s3– that the idea of annihilation of the world is perfectly fine and appropriate.
Fortunately, these blue devils only lasts for a brief moments, but they are keep coming back, and I find myself wondering how much longer this will go on, and if any of you feel the same way?