Should I continue going to therapy?
I started going because I've been dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts for a long time and I didn't know what to do about it, so I thought therapy would help. After a few sessions, she recommended I see a psychiatrist for medication because she saw that my case needed it, and a month ago I finally got an appointment. After two weeks, I started feeling much better.
I've been in therapy for four months, and in those four months I haven't felt like I've made any progress whatsoever. I was telling her that i was so sad that I didn't have the strength to get up or do something as simple as take a shower, and she would tell me to do breathing exercises, go to take the sun, or write down five things I'm grateful for. And i was like, i literally want to die, and I'm so useless that I can't even get out of bed to take a shower. I have no idea what to be grateful for.
In the last few sessions, all we did was talk about my dad, and honestly, I don't feel like talking about my dad helps me not to be depressed. The medication has helped me not to be depressed; talking about my dad depresses me. Besides, the sessions are quite expensive, and idon't feel like they help me at all, but I don't know if it's a good idea to just take medication without any kind of therapy.