20F ex-Muslim trapped need urgent advice
I’m a 20-year-old middle eastren but living in a gulf country and I genuinely feel trapped and scared for my future.
My family found out I’m no longer religious and that I lost my virginity. Since then they’ve taken my phone, stopped me from going to university, restricted my movement, and constantly threaten and shame me. I can’t even record anything because they took my phone I only have limited access to my laptop and email.
They keep telling me my life is over, that I ruined their lives, that I’m disgusting, and that my future has already ended. I feel like they don’t even see me as a human being anymore.
There’s no physical violence right now, but I’m isolated, emotionally destroyed, monitored, financially dependent, and terrified things could escalate further. I have almost no money and no real support system left. I feel completely alone.
I still have access to my passport for now, but I’m scared that could change too.
I’m desperately looking for any realistic resources at all
I honestly feel lost and terrified and I don’t know what to do anymore.