Writing for a school comp
I'm basically a complete beginner with like two pieces made beforehand but that was when I was much younger and my teacher made me join a school competition... but I've never written something like this before and made this on a rush and am kind of nervous, thoughts?
The man looked across the pond
Staring at the beauty of the flowers by the water
And the swaying hair of the woman he loves
"i love her, but i dont deserve her
I'll keep loving her but in my own little way, im not gonna date her
I'll let her be with somebody else
I'd much rather her be happy with somebody else
Than be with me and have her get hurt
I love her, but i cant love her in a way that she'll be happy"
Meanwhile the other girl looks past the water
Staring at the man whom she longs for
"I'm waiting for him to change, I want him to be with me
I love him, I want to be with him
But I'm scared
Scared that he'll hurt me
Scared that he'll do to me what he did to other girls
He's hurt other girls before too
Who's to say he won't hurt me?
Who's to say he loves me less than the other girls he's cheated on before?
I want to be with him, I want to fix him
But it looks like he's not even trying to pursue me
It looks like he's not even chasing me
Is it because he doesn't care about me as much as I care about him?
Maybe, i was really a fool falling for somebody I know would hurt me in the first place
Maybe, i was a fool for thinking I could get him to change in the first place
Maybe, i really should've chosen to fall for somebody else in the first place"
The girl finally met somebody she could be happy with
And as the man stood from afar, watching quietly. A smile tainted with bittersweet taste. He whispers to himself
"She's happy
She's happy with somebody else
It hurts
But still, all that matters is she's happy
I told myself I'll be fine
That I'll be happy for her
But why?
Why am I still hurting?
I don't deserve her
I'm a terrible person
I'm a cheater
I'm a red flag
I have no rights to be sad over this
Because this was what I wanted right?
For her to find somebody other than me to be happy with
She's better off with him
She seems happy
That's all I really ever wanted right?
But maybe, just maybe
Deep down
All I really wanted
Was for her to be happy with me"
He turns back around, and walks away with both hurt and happiness in his heart
The girl, laughing right beside the man who treats her like an angel, never sees him walk away
And for the first time ever, she never felt the sinking fear of getting hurt as he walked past
Instead, what she saw as a mere memory of what could have been
A what if that she's glad has never happened
Because right in front of her, was what she wanted, and what she deserved
"This is it
I've found him
He's the one
He's the one making me happy
Making me laugh
Making me enjoy myself
And letting me show who I truly am
I'm happy
And you know?
Maybe, just maybe
I really WAS a fool, for falling for that person, when I had him all along
I'm happy
that I don't have to live with the fear of getting hurt
I'm happy
that i fell for the right person"
He walked along still
The weight of every mistake he made
The weight of every consequence of his action
And every consequence of his inaction
All bearing down on his shoulders
And as he walked into the quiet path past the trees with falling leaves
Thoughts swirled along his mind
"I'm hurt"
A cold breeze brushed along his back
As if the air is mocking him for his misery
"I'm hurt
But I shouldn't be
Because this is all my fault
I'm hurt
But I shouldn't be
Because this wouldnt have happened had I not been a terrible person
I'm hurt
But I shouldn't be
Because I'm the reason everybody else is hurting around me
I'm hurt
But i shouldn't be
I'm hurt
But i shouldn't be
I shouldn't be
I shouldn't...
I'm hurt
But
I
Shouldnt
Be
Because I'm a terrible person who hurts everyone he ever touches"
But then, a warm sensation squeezes his withering hand
Interrupting his spiral into the abyss
His frown loosens
His chest lowers
The tense air inside him escapes his lips as he look up to see a gentle elderlywoman hold his hand
"Young man
May you help me cross the street?"
She started walking before he could react
They cross the street
Each step feeling like decades with how slow she walked
But those decades mattered
Those were decades less he spent loathing himself
And finally, as they crossed the street
He looked up to see a warm and gentle smile from the old woman
"Thank you
What a kind young man you are
The world needs kind people like you! God bless you dear"
And before a word could even get out of his mouth
The old woman simply turned away and walked off
As if she was simply there just to remind this young man
That maybe
Just maybe
The person he thought he could never be
Wasn't as far away as he thought it'd be
And maybe
Just maybe
There was still some good in his heart
And that he was actually a person
Deserving of happiness
And for the first time ever
He wasn't scared of hurting someone
He realized and accepted
He never truly wanted to be alone
He just wanted for himself and everyone to be happy