I’m moving into an apartment this week. I’d love advice on a spell that I can do to cleanse it of any potential negative energy and protect myself from future negativity.
This is a new start for me. I’m separating myself from toxic family members and want to make my home my safe space.
Reading through everyone else’s stories through this process helped me feel less alone, so I wanted to post a positive update in the hopes it will help someone else.
Before I go into everything I want to share something my doctor told me the first time I met her and has stuck with me. This mindset has helped me in EVERY area of my life. I made a comment to her that I didn’t want to be a “google doctor” and self diagnosis when I wasn’t a professional. She stopped the appointment, looked at me and said “you live in your body. You know it better than I do. If you feel like something isn’t right, listen to that.” If you read nothing else in this novel, please take that to heart. No we aren’t professionals, we may not know WHAT is wrong- but we know when something is wrong with our bodies.
I had surgery for the endo as well as a partial hysterectomy on the 28th. I read some horror stories beforehand of people not getting strong enough pain meds. I had a female doctor (which I think helped) and flat out asked her about the pain meds before the surgery. She assured me they’d give me pain meds and they did.
They did find some endo and also signs of pelvic congestion (which I’ve already scheduled to get checked out) but the change has been insanely positive. The pain after the surgery was definitely there- but it wasn’t as bad as my cramps can be. Right now the only pain I have is my incision sites - which I think is my own fault because I keep forgetting I’m not supposed to bend over and pick things up.
For the past several years I’ve not been able to sit in a car for more than 30 minutes without pain. I thought it was sciatica. But nope. I was in a car for two hours yesterday with no pain or discomfort.
Perhaps TMI- but I’ve had no bowel issues since either (which I thought I had IBS).
It sucks that there’s something else going on yes, but to already see this much improvement is more than I was expecting. I can only imagine the difference when I get everything else situated.
I posted several times on here in tears, freaking out, doubting myself, you name it. The stories everyone else shared on their experiences helped so much- not that I want anyone else to be in that kind of pain, but knowing I wasn’t alone was comforting. I’m leaving them up in case anyone else is in this situation. Don’t give up. It’s exhausting but keep fighting. And don’t be afraid to ask for help- there were times I felt so stupid posting on here, but everyone was so supportive.
So thank you to the members on here for being vulnerable and open. Thank you for being supportive. I hope that I’m able to provide the support that y’all gave to me.
If you’re in Atlanta- I highly recommend going to the Pelvic Rehabilitation Medicine Clinic. They have clinics throughout the country- but I can only speak on my experience here. They listened, answered all of my questions and never treated me like a bother (including when I would send 3am messages freaking out).