okay so this is the first time i have ever posted on reddit but i feel this is the best place to put this.
ill start from the beginng, when i was the age of 6-early teens years i would have intense nightmares, like wake up crying and screaming. had sleep paralysis a few times too, anyway, i would have this reoccuring nightmare of being locked in this indoor pool with this creepy ass man. it was alwasy the same thing, go to the mans house, hang out, have some drinks (beers) and then it shifted to a very dark and heavy feeling like something bad was about to happen. i then would sit on the edge of the pool near the deep in with my feet dangling in the water, the man was standing across me with this blank look and dark eyes like he was a demon, he then started running towards me and i got uo and tried to run out the side door, it was ALWAYS locked. he would then grab me by my hair and threw me into the deep end. he jumps in on top of me and proceeds to drown me until i die. that is when i would wake up crying and screaming. this dream stopped when i got into 8th grade and have never had it since.
fast forward to yesterday (05-05-2026) i get on instagram and see this post about what is called the Fox Hollow Farm Murders that was in the 90s in indiana, let me say this for some context on why this scared me. (i was born in 1998 and HAVE NEVER heard of this until this day.) well when i see this post my heart drops and it feels i have been kicked in my chest. these pictures were my dream and that man was who attacked me in said dream. i dont know why or how but this case is what i dreamed about for years and it was always the same, never changed, nothing new in it and it was consistant for many years. i even remember we met in a crowded area an dhe seemed somewhat normal.
now im a firm beliver in past lifes and reincarnation and other unexplained things. i make this post to maybe have someone tell me im not alone, im not crazy and how to maybe tell me how to remember more of it. i feel in my soul that i was a victim in a past life and i feel i could get more information on this and potentially figure out why i have had this dream so much. i hope this finds the right crowd and i get some help.
all victims that were identified were male, i am a female. im not sure if this is relevant but it feels like it is. i am currently watching the Fox hollows farm murders on hulu and seeing the place it all happened gives me chills and make my anxiety rise, like im reliving my murder over and over again. i need answers and help to figure out what it could mean.