25 years of heavy marijuana use
EDIT: to everyone that has responded and reached out, thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. I'm new to this reddit thing, and was not expecting so many responses and chatting with others who relate to this.
we got this.
Mostly a vent session but all comments welcome. I just want to relate to anyone..
I finally decided I'm ready for a new story. I've always smoked weed, and for no particular reason.
I see a lot of folks say they used it for eating, sleeping, coping, and every other reason under the sun.
But I just love smoking.
I love how it feels to inhale and exhale the smoke. I love touching weed, love the smell, love the sound of the grinder grinding it up to popping a bowl into the grav, and LOVE the creative side that my mind would go to.
Since dispensaries have come in, obviously I went that route. Because whatever I was buying off the streets (not quite literally. I did have a trusted source) but it was getting weird. You can tell they were puttin shit in it. Tasted weird. Didn't even smell right. But anyways, ultimately my decision to quit was based on I'm tired of paying taxes on weed. Dispensaries near the West Tennessee area, charge way too much for mediocre pot. No, I have no desire to grow it. Mostly because I don't think I would do any good at it.
However, it's day 5 , the urges do get better everyday but no matter what.. I still just want to hit. Not even to get high. Just to breathe in smoke, and let it out.. I started using one of those shitty vapes from the gas station, needless to say that only lasted about 3 days. Shit has my lungs and chest so tight.. fuck those things.
I've smoked for 25 years. And the only real reason I can actually come up with to quit is because it's become so unaffordable. My husband is the breadwinner, I don't feel right spending money he earns on my habit.
I don't just sit around the house and do nothing, we have a homestead that I tend to. And I just love smoking weed while I do it. But the more I smoke the more lazy I get and now that I'm not smoking I still don't want to do shit. Can't tell if it's just from heavy use of marijuana for the last 20 years or if it's just because the world is going to absolute shit. Which also goes to say the world has always been shit it definitely has a lot to do with how you perceive life, blah blah blah.
Right now I so badly want to smoke.
Smoking has definitely made me a little dumber.. I guess more lazy. Depending on the day, or the type of but I'm smoking but.. why am I on here, Trying to find a reason to continue to smoke?
Say I'm not alone.
Is it better to be sober or just enjoy getting stoned?