u/Competitive_Hat_1580

I’m mostly writing this to come back to later.

I’m starting to get annoyed by this and wanted to see if anyone has advice. The lymph nodes in my neck have been just a little bit swollen for 2 years now and I’ve tried the whole “being okay with it” and I still get random panic attacks about it. Probably twice a month half my face will go numb, I’ll start sweating at night (I know this is ocd because it started as soon as I typed that out), and I’ll get I weird feeling in my throat? I’ve already been to the doctor and my bloodwork came back normal, they haven’t changed at all in that time but I’m still worrying about it constantly and having frequent panic attacks. I have no idea what to do, I live in a super rural area (nearest pharmacy is 3 hours away) so I don’t know if getting anxiety medications is an option. Does anyone have any advice I feel like I’m losing my mind.

Genuine question, is there a circus school that focuses more stuff like sleight of hand, mimery, juggling, balancing, throwing knives, etc? I have a health condition that affects my legs so I can’t do most acrobatics safely. I’m willing to travel and spend money on this but it doesn’t seem to be a thing.

Context: I’ve broken both my knee caps and as far as I’ve been told I don’t have a mpfl in either leg. I also have a piece of bone free floating in the bag of my knee. This doesn’t affect anything besides range of motion.

I was helping unload a truck for work yesterday and everything was completely normal but when I got home and took my brace off my knee clicked and now it won’t completely straighten or bend more than a couple of degrees. It’s been extremely swollen and the outer bottom side of my knee has a sharp pain.

It doesn’t seem like I dislocated my knee in anyway but my only other theories are that I sprained my acl or maybe the piece of bone in the back of my knee is migrating?

Anyone with a similar experience that might know how to fix this? I leave for a trip in a couple of days.