You have to humiliate yourself to reach fluency
You have to embarrass yourself and make mistakes to effectively learn a language (TL)
I am atheist but god knows how many times I've practiced some phrases and words before saying them and when I tried to say it the natives were completely confused, or when they spoke I wasn't able to understand them so I switched to English, easy way out huh, and made no progress
But I've stopped beating myself up over it, I say things even if it's bullshit, I listen even If I don't understand anything. It's part of the process, its the journey of learning
I say the wrong words, use the wrong grammar, phrases don't make sense, pronunciation is terrible, I misunderstand words, but this is what language learning is about man
Language learning community is full of egocentric people who will make you feel bad about yourself, but any real polyglots who master multiple languages will tell you that they have gone through this humbling phase where you feel like crap. You don't have to try to be perfect, just do it, say it, and then it will get better.