I think many of you already know about the Saturn-Moon matrix; it's one of the main ways the Archons leave our vibrations to provoke fear. Sometimes I wonder if my thoughts and emotions are normally so sensitive to certain situations, but I see that it's already destined to be worse than the feeling would originally be.
So, I find myself thinking a lot about my problems with this world, not necessarily problems that are mine alone, but a universal truth that encompasses the problems of the earth. The earth was created by the demiurge, and our sensations, our personalities, our senses—everything is being manipulated in the lowest way possible. Sometimes I can't even stop to think about my happiness, because I don't want to be focused on the material world, nor on false ties or contracts with other human beings who need certain requirements to be friends. Yes, that's why time itself, if you let it pass and take all the calamities with it, you will never have a way to overcome it by opening your arms to the world. Never spreading your wings for something greater, not even your goals can satisfy you when achieved, it's a disappointment to have in people, as if they don't have time to question or see beyond.
The only way to obtain gnosis, and thus somehow gain clarity of mind, is to be part of the process of not being reincarnated back on Earth. We must gain more knowledge of the divine and see the patterns of the world; everything has patterns, nature follows its course, and it predicts its own rains and warns us all the time. The signs of the calamity are not apparent like a heavy, gray cloud; it may not even rain, and it might rain, what would it matter? People will die from that rain in an almost inevitable domino effect. I'm not afraid of death; death seems more reasonable than it appears. To live to survive, to live in a constant state of survival alert: to work to earn money and pay your taxes, spending time with your family, nurturing your relationships, and having time for your own life—degrees, studies, constant approval, masquerades full of germs in your head will have no place here. You can feel the anxiety just imagining or remembering the course of your life going and being this way; you will surely be a slave to someone, just as we are slaves to the demiurge and his archons. We must begin to rebel against this world and these evil people, rebel against the archons and stand against the demiurge, for who else would have the courage but ourselves, not the owners of the truth, owever, we are bearers of a greater light that we carry within us, so as not to follow the light created by these evil beings.
I am not close to attaining gnosis; my knowledge is quite limited, and I still find myself clinging to the material world and unnecessary desires that work against my energy. I have several flaws and the more I perceive the reality around me, even if the idea already seems melancholic and hopeless, the more faith I have in death and hope to gain more knowledge. I have a troubled heart and a mind full of distractions; I recognize my suffering in this world, and that is why I am going against it. I may still be young, and even if my heart breaks and my mind doesn't become as sober as it is now, recognizing that without the practice to stand on our own two feet, I am sad and continue following my path. The path to our independence is always nebulous and full of obscurity in various ways; this means that the world hasn't told you which path to take, nor even what to do for yourself, therefore You hold the answer to your own path. You will walk this path and feel fear at your feet, but what truly belongs to you below material possessions? Do not confuse your spirit, for hope is last, but It lasts forever