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So this is a vent but if you've been in a similar situation please interact. And yeah tbis sounds like a typical suffering from success, my lobster's too buttery story but please hear me out.

I love snuggling with them normally but it's summer, it's a billion degrees outside and even with the ac I'm in the least possible amount of clothing at home. They love snuggling and cuddling, even during summer they have to have at least a paw on my arm, leg or back. I guess it's not hot to them. And they come over when I'm in the middle of doing something or when I've just started, which can be very annoying as I have depression and trying to make myself start tasks is next to impossible.

They also do this right when my alarm is about to go off in the morning and I have to spend some time digging my phone from under them. They all flock to me, usually 2 at a time but sometimes 3, and it sounds cute and it is cute but it's hot and since I have almost no clothes on me, their claws dig into my bare skin when they make biscuits and knead. I get very frustrated and annoyed and I'm not usually like that with them.

Lately whenever they meow or want something I get annoyed and overstimulated even if I'm not doing anything. I get especially annoyed when my older cat meows for food 10 minutes after her feeder went off but she was too lazy to get up and eat, so now the other 2 cats ate all her food (happened a few times only but still annoying). Out of principle I didn't feed her this morning despite her meows and just put earplugs in- I don't care, she did this to herself. The feeder was like 3 steps from the bed and it's not like she's immobile or has difficulty moving. It's also lifted so she doesn't get reflux and doesn't have to bend her head so much. She's 12, but not disabled. Also this was at 9 am, the first feed was at 4 am and the next feed was at 12 so it's not like she was starving.

I feel like a bad cat parent because I love them so much but kinda don't want to interact with them that much lately, I've been through a bad breakup and idk my emotions are all over the place and my anxiety has increased significantly. I just get annoyed so easily by everything and it makes me sad, especially when I move my elderly cat from my chest because she's digging her claws into my boobs and I just can't take it anymore. I know she doesn't understand what she's doing and that makes me all the more sad and annoyed.

I'm also annoyed at my elderly cat because she keeps grooming her legs and belly. She had a staph infection there but nothing major and is receiving antibiotics, but those tiny wounds won't heal if she keeps chewing at them. And every time I hear that smacking sound I know she is chewing her legs and it drives me mad. I tried distracting her and it sometimes works but now she hides when she chews her legs cause she knows she shouldn't be doing that and it annoys me. I feel kinda petty and want to put her in a cone of shame so she can't chew the legs. I know it would be for her own good but I'd feel a bit vindicated, too, and wouldn't have to hear that smacking sound anymore.

It's petty, I'm beefing with a 12 year old cat about her chewed out chicken legs and two 2 year old cats about kneading on me. Anyway, thanks for coming to my TED talk.

TW: mental health issues, depression, suicidal thoughts, self harm

I watched Given as a teen and it was a whole different experience than it is now. Back then I was in a deep depressive episode and watching the series made me see a different side to suicide. I myself was actively self harming and considering suicide due to heavy depression, but seeing how devastated Yuki's loved ones were made me rethink a little. It wasn't a huge impact on me but it did make me consider it a bit more than before. I didn't really focus on much else besides the grief and Mafuyu's loss. His song didn't do it for me then, it was okay but I didn't feel like it was as impactful as others said it was.

Now I'm mentally stable and depression is under control, but I just broke off a long term relationship with who I thought was the love of my life after he got mentally ill (long story and not really relevant but it was not depression and it was bad).

Now I see the show differently and it hurts in a whole new way.

This time around I'm kinda in Mafuyu's place. Although my ex is still alive, who he was before is completely gone, replaced by someone I don't recognise at all anymore. I understand that's not the same as losing someone to suicide, though.

This time Mafuyu's song made me outright sob and ugly cry. I had to pause halfway through because it hurt so badly. How he wanted to talk to him one more time or see him one more time and everywhere he looks he feels him there with him, but Yuki isn't really there, he's only a memory. I sort of felt that myself.

And the movies? The way Mafuyu and Hiiragi are still affected by Yuki being gone, how deep of an impact he left in their lives and how deep their grief runs... I think I'm probably rewatching it at the worst possible time, but I believe I am finally seeing the beauty of both the series and the movies. The songs are amazing, the portrayal of grief and moving on is so realistic and the healing is almost tangible. I still have one movie left and I've read it's the one where Mafuyu gets some closure so I'm really looking forward to that.

I have 5 BEES IN MY BATHROOM.

They just keep multyplying, there were 2 about half an hour ago. I ignored them because I am deathly affraid of bees and unsure if I am allergic or not.

I love bees from a distance, but close to me I panic. I don't want to kill them, but they can't stay in my bathroom, I need to pee! How do I get rid of so many bees humanely? They snuck in through a half opened window but it's raining outside now and they don't seem to want to leave. They hover around the window but won't go out.

Also I have 3 cats and they are starting to notice the sound. I'm scared they might try to eat them and get stung, too.

Pleaseeee helpppppp

EDIT: Thanks everyone for commenting and trying to help! I folded and called my mom to get them out and she just upended the makeup bag gently and scooped them out one by one. She said they were dazed and confused but took flight immediately when she tossed them out (after the rain had stopped). The one on the hairbrush took off on its own. So all five have been humanely and safely removed from my bathroom. I will talk to the building manager about potentially checking for hives or colonies in the attic and to see if there are any bees in my walls. I don't hear the buzzing but this isn't the first time I have mysteriously found several bees in or outside my bathroom. Not sure the manager will bother but I'll give it a shot.