doubting this path
I am about halfway through my nursing degree and have applied to some public and private AIN jobs to try get some experience . I have had one interview so far and they are now asking for referees, but no one wants to be my referee. I had 3 facilitators only one wanted to be my referee, they are asking 2 additional clinical referees so 3 referees in total. I only probably have one lab tutor that I can ask realistically so I won't have enough references and probably won't get the job. It feels like I am doing all this work and study for nothing, like how am i going to get a grad placement and subsequent employment if I this is my luck in getting experience.
I don't know why it's so hard for me, I know that I am a good student, I get good grades, always helpful to my nurses on placement, good feedback on my placements, but I just dont really seem to fit in this nursing clique, nurses ignore and exclude me, facilitators aren't really that helpful at best and rude at worst. I just feel so hopeless rn :/