I’ve been using pouches since 2021. About a can of 12mg a day. Dropped down to 3s in October, still using around a can a day. Saw a guy on here say he’s about a year into recovery and somehow still feels just as bad as day one. I’m terrified.
I’m prob gonna sound like a puss and if yall wanna call me a little bitch that’s fine but I’m genuinely just looking for hope. I’ve been addicted to these nasty ass things since 2021 and I don’t wanna do it anymore. This addiction has completely wreaked havoc on my life. I feel like idek who I am anymore. I’m tired and feel physically weak and sick all the time. I also can’t remember the last time life felt “normal” or the last time I could think clearly and it’s starting to freak me the fuck out.
Anyways enough with the sob story. I’m thinking of quitting again (this’ll be my 4th attempt) and my biggest concerns are the anxiety, depression and more “mental health-ish” side effects because I’m already going thru some pretty intense life changes rn. For one, I am getting out of the military after serving 8 years in August, and for two I’m currently coping with the loss of the love of my life. Tragic.
The last time I quit cold turkey, the paranoia, dread, panic etc was off the charts and that was when life was all good. I just feel like I’m not equipped to do this with everything else I got going on, but I also feel like that’s an excuse. I’m just gonna keep it straight with you brothers, I’m scared. I’m scared of being addicted forever, but also terrified that I won’t survive a quit.
Any words, advice, encouragement etc would be super sick rn. Godspeed.