Technical problems in gigs
Hi I'd apprciate it so much if to youll read it.
I’m 19 and recently started playing bass as a substitute for a pretty big artist in my country. It was honestly a dream gig for me, but mentally the pressure has been destroying me.
The environment is super chaotic no rehearsals, last minute charts, changing live arrangements, unclear talkback cues, etc. and I actually dealt with it pretty good and gave good shows, but today during a show my bass suddenly went out of tune and wouldn’t respond to the tuner and the Pl was fucked and I didn't realise fast enough. They had to play bass from the computer for the first two songs of the show until I got a spare bass, and then I also had cable issues, and it also hurt my playing after that cause I felt so bad inside, and now I feel horrible and embarrassed.
Everyone (I hope everyone) understood it was technical and not really my fault, but I can’t stop replaying it in my head and feeling like people think I’m unreliable because of previous minor mistakes too.
The weird thing is that when I’m relaxed I know I’m a really good player. But lately the anxiety around live shows has been hard af I felt like they threw me into the water and when I finally about to give great show after all the experience from last shows I have this issue I want to die inside.
Have any musicians here experienced something similar early in their career? I have no one I want to talk with about this.