I feel stupid - Job searching in Maine
This is probably the absolute worst time to be at the end of my rope and burnt out at my current place of employment. I just do not want to continue, I've lost all motivation. But I'm stuck. I assure you I am no newbie to hard work, I promise I work so hard. But I'm tired, and fed up with a company that has made it's greed crystal clear.
I just want out.
I am a single parent with no support system. I need school hours or remote work. If I get a job with later hours, I'd need to pay for afterschool care, and it's looking miserable trying to find a job that pays over $20 an hour that doesn't require a degree.
Commission based, contract only, nurse, nurse, bachelors required, experience required, weekends required, your whole f@cking life in our hands, REQUIRED.
I feel so helpless and trapped at a place I don't want to be anymore. And no pay raise in years!!! It's as if work gets in the way of trying to get through life at this point, parenting, errands, house chores, unexpected repairs, oh yeah time to register the car again. Time to inspect the car again, oh let's watch an appliance break while we're at it. Groceries are outrageous, gas went up again.
Of course, my first thought too is "Just shut the f@ck up, be grateful, and do your job." But I am ready to break. I just want something different, a reset, a change from a toxic work environment, and something that actually pays the bills.
I'm screwed, huh?