u/Critical_Goal_417

Thank you mod & members

You all have been critical in my healing process. I've been here on reddit a lot more since we lost Oliver.

I can't believe so many posts and responses that had almost an identical reaction in the details when expressing the pain.

I honestly was getting annoyed at Reddit prompts this last two weeks. "Like you are doing great! You've earned bla blah blah", when I have been here because my heart was broken and I just needed to be connected to others who understand.

Feeling grateful for this group of Oliver Tree lovers from all walks of life.

Thank you to everyone who has decided to openly share and express their raw emotions, art and tributes during this process. It's a brave and vulnerable thing to do and it is incredibly healing to be a part of it. 🙌👽🌈♥️

Special thanks to the moderator for doing such a good job managing it all. ✌️👽🌈♥️

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u/Critical_Goal_417 — 9 hours ago

Grief into art.

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Well, I think this my first official post here. For the first week I was walking around in so much pain I couldn't function. Then while the pain started to ease up a bit I was able to start putting my grief into art.

We had taken a trip to Santa Cruz the day after he passed away to spend the day in his hometown. The first day we stayed along the coast. Walked the pier. The next day we went to The Redwoods. Along the 101 we passed by the beautiful California hills with lots of poppies everywhere. That's where this image started to form in my mind.

We blasted his music, everything from Tree to Love You Madly Hate You Badly.

We had seen Oliver 3 times live. In San Francisco, Oakland and then in Santa Cruz. In Santa Cruz we all sang happy birthday to his grandmother. We still don't know if it was actually his grandmother's birthday. Lol.

You know I had not really even given the LMHB album a chance. And how it was released, I'd hear one song think, meh, I'm not sure what I think. Then weeks later another one, maybe better. We hadn't even planned to go to the upcoming show in Oakland because we weren't sure how we felt about the new album.

But then listening to it on repeat from beginning to the end, I can now say it's one of my favorite albums and there are so many great songs on it. We hadn't even heard like 90% of the album until after he was gone.

It really felt like he was always singing about his death. Like he had some kind of premonition that it was coming early and he had to work fast to get as much art out as possible.

I am so grateful for all the art and laughs he gave us. This is my tribute to Oliver.

u/Critical_Goal_417 — 1 day ago