What are the meanings of these dreams: struggling spiritually
I have been having bad dreams all my life, and I feel alone asking anyone around me because no one seems to understand. I was wondering if maybe someone would understand or be able to help me understand.
I've had two recent ones that have really set the bar for me, realizing that maybe these weren't just dreams anymore. I could physically feel them almost like sleep paralysis but it wasn't that, and I was basically conscious in my own dream at some point, vividly feeling it to the point whatever happened in my dream was happening in reality.
Dream #1: I was sitting in my room when I noticed something off, my closet light was off which I have no door so I can see the light hue regardless. I went out of my room to either the living room or my moms room and when I came back my lights were acting weird, my mattress was gone and the bed frames broke. I ran to my mom's room and was panicking when I heard my sister scream in the living room. I ran out to the living room and I couldn't directly see it but I could see if if that makes sense, it was running towards me. I screamed "I'm not afraid of you" before getting lifted and choked, slammed down to the ground and I couldn't speak or breathe, almost paralyzed but I could physically feel it as if it was happening in my sleep. I remember consciously forcing myself in my dream to say "Jesus Christ" 3 times before I woke up gasping for air, in no position was i able to be choking myself or having my airways blocked.
Dream #2: I was having an evil dream inside of an evil dream basically. This whole dream I was conscious. I knew I was dreaming but in my dream I was awake in my bed, watching Netflix or something I was on some app on my tv. When I went to sleep in my dream I was inside of a dream, hard to explain. We'll call it fake dream to difference between my actual dream happening and the one inside of it. In the fake dream an evil spirit or entity kept trying to speak to me and make me do bad things or do bad things to me I can't remember exactly what. But I remember waking up from the fake dream and praying and I'd go back to sleep but it'd keep coming back madder and madder. I'd keep waking up and praying inside of my actual dream. Then on my last prayer before going to sleep inside of my actual dream it popped up in my fake dream again (it'd only pop up in my fake dream) and split into many evil spirits or something shouting "stop praying to God" in a scary deep voice and I suddenly woke up from the entire thing, fearful.
Beyond the two dreams lately I could feel when a Spirit is around even if i can distinctively prove it or see it. But I could pinpoint exactly where I feel its at, see it but not see it and sense it. Am I being attack or what's going on? I want to figure out what I can do to stop it, I'm already praying more or trying to.