u/Curious-Abalone

This is a really painful post 😢

Jesus said in Matthew 6:31-33 that God will provide for our (basic) needs if we are seeking the kingdom and righteousness.

But Christians do sometimes have their needs unmet, and the Bible acknowledges this too.

John Piper explains this apparent contradiction by saying God will provide for our needs as needed to fulfill his will. And so one imagines an elderly dying person, and God calling them a good and faithful servant for having fulfilled his will for their life, they've done everything and now they can go to be with God.

But what if the person doesn't die they just develop a chronic severe illness?

This is me.

I built my house on the rock, sought the kingdom, lived all out for God, etc. And I went through a period as a young adult where my needs were not met. And as a result I developed a serious illness that means I can no longer do many of the things I was doing in life.

I had big dreams about how to make the world a better place, but now I can only do a tiny fraction of it.

It's been years, and I still can't make sense of it. Jesus said my needs would be met, and they weren't.

John Piper says it's because it's not God's will for me to continue doing the good and impactful things I was doing. What does that mean? God doesn't need me anymore? He doesn't want me to have a positive impact? He's casting me aside?

How can I trust him again? It seems there's no real guarantee he'll meet my needs, only when it suits him.

My faith has dwindled and I'm trying to hold on but this is the elephant in the room, the barrier. Please help me keep faith.

Not an SLP but I've recently come across DLD and pretty sure I have it. I'm 33. I've never had speech therapy. I'm in autistic burnout rn too and I've realised how exhausting it is for me to communicate well. I have to really try. And I think I'm burnt out from it.

Struggling to phrase my question now lol.

Is success with DLD, whether on your own or through speech therapy, essentially just: trying? Constantly putting in considerable effort. Because that's exhausting. I want to just point at things and use incomplete grammar etc, it's so much easier. The amount of 'trying' I've done throughout my life might look like success on the outside (eg I can write this post) but it doesn't feel sustainable because I'm burning out. It's masking, really.

I just want to understand what the goal of speech therapy is for DLD, I suppose. Is it wrong to be 'trying' like this in an unsustainable way? Or is it best practice to encourage effort like this?

Or is speech therapy for adults with DLD more about shortcuts or aids that would mean one can communicate to the same standard with less effort?

Is it bad to stop trying so hard and communicate more simply? Would that be bad for one's brain health (losing brain connections etc)?

I just want to know what the best practice is in general, obviously you can't diagnose me or apply advice to my situation.

Thanks