u/Curious-War7087

I'm curious about people who have lived with the same unusual or difficult experiences for many years like hearing voices or feeling things are controlled.

For me, I've been dealing with the same kinds of experiences for around 10 years. I've also been prescribed several different antipsychotic medications during that time. After years of experiencing the same things, observing patterns, and going through different treatments, I eventually reached a point where I felt very strongly that something real was happening to me, even though I couldn't necessarily explain exactly what was causing it and the exact details.

I'm not saying that taking medication automatically proves that someone's interpretation of an experience is correct. I'm asking something a little different:

Has anyone else reached a point where the length of time you've experienced something, the consistency of it, and everything you've gone through trying to understand or treat it made you confident that your experience itself was genuinely happening—even if you weren't completely sure what the underlying explanation was?

For those who have experienced this, what was the turning point for you?

I am 100% sure about what I'm experiencing is from an outside source or people. Details are still a bit confusing, but I have a general idea.

How long have you been a target, heard voices, been paranoid but realizing this stuff was real and happening? For me it's been about 10 years. Since 2017. I'll admit the first 2/3 years I guess I was probably actually paranoid, but after the 4th year I realized this was real and happening. Was there a drug released or something put out in the water or air at the time? A vaccine? An illness? A Dr*g you tried? When did this start for you? Seems in the last 10 years I've been seeing.

How long have you been a target, heard voices, been paranoid but realizing this stuff was real and happening? For me it's been about 10 years. Since 2017. I'll admit the first 2/3 years I guess I was probably actually paranoid, but after the 4th year I realized this was real and happening. Was there a drug released or something put out in the water or air at the time? A vaccine? An illness? A Dr*g you tried? When did this start for you? Seems in the last 10 years I've been seeing.

This is my first reddit post. First time on reddit even. This is about voices and paranoia still happening even with meds, treatments, and hospitals. Im trying here.

"I've been on multiple antipsychotic medications for about 10 years. These medications are meant to reduce symptoms and to help me and others tell the difference between what's real and what might be paranoia or a distorted perception of reality. They help me hear and see what's actually real, like with the voices and paranoia I deal with.

Even with years of treatment, i still hear voices every single day. This has been going on for about five years non stop now, the voices often repeat the same things, comment on what I’m currently dealing with, and reflect my feelings in ways that seem very real and convincing to me.

Over the years, I've been hospitalized and in mental health rehab programs 6 times. Each time, those hospitals and programs helped clean me up and get me stable and healthy again. The medication and structured support stripped away the psychosis, leaving me with a clearer view of what's actually true and real. Like the voices and paranoia I deal with. When I tell them this, the only thing they say is it's "treatment resistant" schizophrenia, or psychosis. That has been extremely frustrating for me to hear, after so many times.

I’ve never actually seen anyone speaking the words I hear out loud, which makes this experience even more confusing and distressing. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to understand why this is happening and what could explain it. Living with this has caused extreme stress, trauma, and emotional pain.

Based on everything I've described, the voices I hear must be coming from inside my own mind, or possibly being transmitted there somehow. My best guess is that they're AI-generated — especially the main voice I call my "voice lady." It's 2026, and technology has advanced enormously since the first moon landing in 1969. New technology, chemicals, scientific research, and AI have all developed significantly over the decades — enough, I believe, to explain what I've been experiencing.

I also want to say that I genuinely hope my neighbors and community aren't responsible for putting me through this. It hasn't helped me in any way — it's only caused me severe suffering and trauma. I've lived in many different states, around many different people, which makes me believe this isn't coming from anyone close to me — not neighbors, classmates, or family. At least, I really hope not. Unfortunately, people can be capable of cruelty. What I've experienced, if deliberately caused by someone, would amount to a serious crime against humanity.

Hope this helps a bit, as this has been overwhelming for me. What helps me stay grounded is reminding myself: “Reality is still real.” The sky is blue. Night and day still happen. There are basic truths I can hold onto. Telling myself that helps me stay centered and remember what is solid and dependable.

 Still, living with this every day has been devastating and deeply distressing.

I share my story hoping it offers some insight into an experience that is difficult to fully put into words."