exam hall stress. Help
I have a University exam on Thursday and I’m currently tearing my hair out over it, unable to stop the anxiety at all. I don’t know if I’m alone in this, but I hate large rooms full of people as it makes my dissociation spiral out of control. The idea of sitting in the middle of an exam hall with 400 people in complete silence is sending my brain into intense anxiety just thinking about it.
My intrusive thoughts have been really bad recently, even going outside, getting the bus or eating in a restaurant makes me dissociate heavily. I have no idea what I’m going to do on Thursday.
I really don’t know what to do, I’m worried that I’m going to have a panic attack, and just completely embarrass myself or something.
At the same time I literally have no choice but to sit this exam, I’ve spoken to my university and they say that I can’t change my exam circumstances or room.
I haven’t even started revising yet as the thought of the exam is so anxiety inducing. I literally have just been sleeping all day trying to numb my feelings for the past 2 weeks.
I have some diazepam to take, will it help? I took 2mg yesterday and it didn’t really do anything. I just need some words, anything, from someone who actually knows what going through dissociation is like and can help me please.