Feeling down
Hey everyone. I'm sorry if this is not the place to say all this but I needed to let it out somewhere.
I worked so hard for a master's abroad and eventually won an amazing award that covered the tuition and living costs. I was fine until the last moment then I landed another job in my country that I enjoyed. At the last minute I started to think about grad school and about the career prospects after so I decided not going would be the better decision for me. Now I'm facing an issue at my current job and rethinking everything. I don't know what I'm even doing anymore. No matter what I choose I always think about the other option. Now that I can't take anything back I'm feeling depressed and can't help but wonder if I have made the biggest mistake of my life. I wish I was someone who knew what they wanted and went for it no matter what.