Hey guys. This is, basically, a sequel to my previous post: https://www.reddit.com/r/anesthesiology/comments/1ng5wx9/how_to_negotiate_for_less_hours/
I never got the courage to negotiate less hours officially. I did try to ask for less load and warn that my health was deteriorating, the answer to which was, basically, "stop being dramatic, you're not that busy, I'm going easy on you already, go work". I ended up, currently, being admitted to neurology unit, because I'm currently at 20+ migraine days/month despite several preventive meds, with non-stop focal signs (basically, my left side is constantly slightly numb or twitching), and I just got my MRI result which shows several lacunar lesions which weren't there less than 5 years ago. 🫠
I know it's not the end of the world, I know it's not like a real stroke (yet), but I am still very upset. I feel... defective, to say the least, like I cannot live up to that 80 hr/week idealistic standard we all have in mind. I have no idea what to do, how to stand up for myself and how to save myself before the damage has gone too far. I haven't really told anyone IRL yet, I have no idea how to handle it. (Also, the teaching job is still constantly calling me for errands despite me being officially admitted, I'm just still expected to answer and solve stuff, even if I'm under a drip or something). Am I being too dramatic? I'm so sorry. Please talk to me. 🫠