Time is passing, the "future" is getting closer, and it's haunting me
I'm 18M from Italy, and I've just graduated from the final grade of the Italian school system and summer has started, so I have a choice; go to university or start working. I am 100% sure I want to go to university, because I love learning new things, I've never been satisfied with what I learned in school, which has always led me to explore things on my own and it has led me to great results in school which makes me believe university is absolutely doable, but my fears start here. I have no idea what to study in university, I just like so many things; medicine, engineering, math, physics, they all just seem so interesting to me and I don't know what path is the right one for me, what is the most convenient choice, the best choice. I'm just really scared because it feels like the most important decision of my life up until now. Beyond this, I also want to take control of my life. I'm not content with just living my days uselessly during this summer, I want to learn new things, do things, I want to learn skills, something, make my time useful, but I also don't know what I could aim to learn, or try to do. I just need some guidance to take control of my life; how can I spend my time in a good way? What can I learn or learn to do during the summer? what activities could really help me with my future or to choose my future? How can I just decide what my future job and studies should be focused on?