Im going to keep this short because there is too munch to say on it. I am from south asia. My mother from a very young age has been abusive towards me, i know that some may say its okay and that she actually loves you but trust me ive goe through enough materials on this through the internet to be 100% sure that she is not. She uses her position as a mother to call me, hit me however she wants, its as if Allah has granted her special privileges to do what she likes to me. My dads side had immigrated from a different country and she calls me and my dad racial slurs. My dad is also a victim of her abuse, he was different before when he ws abusive(according to my mom) but i dont see him the way she described him to me now, hes rather more softspoken than her, more logical. My mum today said that she prays to Allah that ill never be successful in achieving my dreams and standing on my own, ive said things like why give birth to me, and that id never want to be like you etc, but Allah, despite knowing all that trauma that i went through, will he accept my mothers dua, that may i never be successful?
Btw theres no one i can get help from, becuase once she knows, itll be worse