Quitapine to Aripiprazole
I was on 50 mg of quitapine for my bpd/suspected bi polar?? I have an assessment for bipolar in a few weeks but the quitapine really changed my life, I was the most stable I’ve ever been managed to not drink for 4 months, didn’t touch drugs really curbed my impulsive behaviour around sex ect. But I put so much weight on I didn’t recognise myself. I spoke to my new gp (moved to a new city in the uk) and because the crisis team had prescribed me quitapine they kept me on it and would keep it as a repeat prescription. When I mentioned coming off it they said just take every other night. Since then things have gone from bad to worse I feel completely unstable unable to regulate my anxiety and emotions lots of my BPD traits coming back and feeling full emotions again. So I go back to the GP and say I don’t care if I’m fat I can’t feel like this, in the time I was on quitapine I managed to hold down a job for a year (never done before), get a new job as a a civil servant( never thought I’d have a job I’d be happy in) and got a happy relationship with someone (even though he doesn’t know about my BPD) but when I went back to say please can I go back on to the quitapine they said I am now under the care of community mental health team. And they are truly awful, they don’t give me meds, they cancel every appointment my doctor has sent 4 urgent referrals and they’ve never called me so I turned up to the centre itself and cried like a baby lol until someone came out and handed me a prescription for aripiprazol, promethazine and Procyclidine. Bearing in mind I have not spoken with any professional, just reception staff, I’ve been on it for 4 days now and feel horrendous does anyone else have a success story because all I see online is that it makes you put on weight and is life ruining. I know it’s different for everyone but it’s so hard having to figure it out on Reddit before actually seeing a professional. I have a bi polar assessment in 2 weeks, where I guess I’ll learn some more. But if anyone has any advice for me or how to navigate this community mental health care system let me know because so far all I’ve had is people hanging the phone up or saying they’ll call back and never do. I called 111 as advised (I would never normally as I don’t think it’s that urgent and hate to feel like I’m wasting time) they told me to go to the mind website. Am I going insane ?? I know how underfunded mental health is but for once I’m trying to be proactive and not become an in patient again but it feels as though I’m the only one trying go refuses to talk to me and so do community mental health. Please if anyone has any advice I’ve never posted on Reddit before I doubt anyone will read but anything will help me feel less alone in this I feel like I’ve ruined my life by coming off quitapine