u/Dear-Diamond-2335

Holaaaa,

Im an 18 year old girl that’s lost her period last June due to weightloss! The weightloss wasn’t that extreme, and I was no where near ‘slim’. I believe that I was around >!66 kg..????!< when I lost it, but im not sure as I didn’t weigh myself. At first I was like, damn it’ll come back, or damn maybe I’m pregnant even though I’m a virgin and have never seen or touched a male like that hahaha. Anyways, last year November I started worrying and decided to call the doctor. The doctor didn’t diagnose me with an >!eating disorder!< yet because I wasn’t that honest and just said I was losing weight in a healthy way. (Which I wasn’t, I was obsessed with calories and overexercising). At my lowest weight I reached >!49 kg as a 173 tall teenager!<. Felt amazing for a while until I couldn’t hold in my pee, couldn’t sleep, felt extremely cold, fainted in public, and was super moody. So I decided to go all-in. Yeahhh…all-in turned into extreme >!binging!<. Since January I’ve been >!binging 7/8k calories everyday!<. I’ve gained a LOT of weight. From >!49 to currently 74 kg!<. But still no period, what should I do? Continue to eat above >!2k!< calories or go into a small deficit?

(Sensitive subject.)

I’ve genuinely never felt at peace with myself. When I was bigger, I wanted to feel small, I just wanted to be loved. I thought that if I lost weight I would be. And yes, for a period I felt looked at. Compliments I never received started coming. But then I felt sick, never went outside again, I was so so cold, couldn’t hold my pee in, even >!soiled my bed!<. I’m so fucking embarrassing. So I decided okay, let’s just gain a bit of weight, regain my period, start loving myself and not giving af about opinions from others. But gaining a bit started to turn into food addiction. I’ve landed in the worst period of >!binge!< eating ever. Eating >!8k!< calories almost daily. I can’t live like this. When does it start getting better? When can I let go of my body image? When can I start feeling confident? How do I just love myself for who I am when there’s nothing to love? I have gained so much weight, I’m overweight and haven’t got my period back. It’s all for nothing. I’m 18 and a fucking failure dude, wtf.

Hiii,

I’ve been in HA recovery for 14 weeks now. There’s no improvement on the menstrual part. But my digestive system is better, I can actually shit now without laxatives lol. I’m also noticing a better mood, better skin, etc. But no period yet. I’m getting a bit discouraged especially since I gained >!20!< kgs in the process. And are now bordering a heavier weight than before I lost my period. I can’t stop binging. Every day without fail I’ve been eating up to >!6k!< calories. At first I was like okay, it’s extreme hunger and I’ll allow myself to honor it. But now it’s just binging. How can I stop this but still get my period?