u/Deep-Understanding71

Title says it all basically.

I always told myself I will first fix this before I enter a relationship. But then I met the perfect person. I never experienced anything like it. Conversations would just flow, I could just talk for hours. I seriously believed I would be able to make this work. I completely broke her. She also came with a lot of trauma and I just made everything so much worse by not being there for her and saying the worst fucking things in the worst moments. We are currently on break for a few more days but I don't know if I can ever look at her again for what I've done to her.

I think she is the reason why I finally got back the motivation to fix my brain fog, but I fucked it up and now it is most likely to late for her. She even said "I will leave you, you will fix yourself and be the perfect boyfriend for the next girl". I hate myself so much for this.

I have been suffering from dissocation and brain fog like symptoms for a long time. Recently I had bloodwork done and I got two b12 injection a few months apart. I took oral b12 (and b complex) as well. Recently I had a "crash out" and my doctor sent me to psychologist. I mentioned to my doctor that a lot of my mental symptoms could also come from the deficiency. He did not really aknowledge this.

Does anyone have any experiences of how my psychologist might see this? I feel like they might also be somewhat dismissive? Obviously depends on the person but I would like to hear some opinions on how to approach my first session. My psychologist and doctor will be in contact with each other.