Almost 30 and still feel like I'm lost
Hi everyone, long time lurker of this sub. I'm not really sure where to begin with this post, but I'm hoping for some advice or maybe I'll read a comment that grounds me a bit.
For context: I am a US citizen living in the southern part of the states. I have a stable (ish) job where I work from home doing customer support for a large tech company.
I am nearly 30 years old and I feel like I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I remember graduating from high school at 18 and going to community college for the 1st time. It felt like I had to choose my forever path, which caused me to be overwhelmed. I eventually landed on accounting partly due to binge watching Parks and Rec and Ben seemed chill.
I dropped out of college after my 1st semester and since then, I've been in and out of college. I have also accrued nearly $20k in student debt from my years of dropping out and going back to different schools. Currently I am almost done with a Bachelors degree, but it's in business. It's not something I'm particularly thrilled about, but I figured it was better than nothing.
Deep down I want to do something that makes a positive impact on the environment. It's what my head and heart wants, but I have no experience in the environmental field. Habitat restoration seems super interesting, but so did all the other paths I've looked into before.
I'd say this desire started when I watched some environmental show or documentary in 2016 where these engineers and scientists were trying to assist the city of Venice, Italy with flood prevention. It seemed like these people were truly changing lives and making a positive impact to the surrounding community.
Part of my problem may be my diagnosed MDD, OCD, and GAD. I find it so difficult to even picture what the future may look like when my imagination feels so bleak.
With that being said, I can say if you asked me what a dream life looks like, I'd probably say it's living in Japan and traveling around to assist with ecological restoration or disaster prevention. I don't like to stay in one place and love to travel and move around. I do have an interest in volunteering as well, but I'm more focused on what career paths I can
I pick Japan because I adore the country. It's a place I love visiting and I feel free and safe when I'm there. The food is a plus too! Obviously every country has issues, so I don't want this thread to get political.
This post has gotten kinda long, so I guess I'll end it here. Does anyone know if it's difficult or worth it to pursue an environmental engineering or science Masters degree if their Bachelors is in business? Especially if I am pushing 30. I feel like I'm running out of time and that soon I may be stuck in one place. I don't want to forever be haunted by the mistakes of my past and settle for a life of mediocrity.
Thanks in advance to anyone who replies!