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I am a 19 year old girl and I work at a small(ish) chain restaurant/bar in the PNW. It’s not super popular but if you’re from Oregon or Washington I’m sure you’ve heard of it. Either way it’s pretty much the biggest restaurant in the town I’m from, so if anything is going on in town we get insanely busy. This last weekend has been a sht show. We are constantly understaffed, I am either underwhelmed and getting sent home early from my shift with 15$ in my pocket or I’m freaking out, extremely stressed with no support and still leaving with less than what I feel like I should be making. I hear stories of people making up to 600-800 dollars on a busy night in certain restaurants and the most I’ve made is $350 on an insane night. Anyway all of the context aside, every shift I have I pretty much walk in and I’m in an ok mood but I’ve been so irritable there recently. Like today for example, again we were super understaffed and in the middle of a rush, i was wearing a white shirt and a bottle of mustard exploded on me. I started laughing and then quickly it changed from laughing to crying and the thought came to my head that I had to leave. I had so much stress built up from the weekend. I want to quit so badly but it’s the only job I’ve ever worked, I love my coworkers, im good at the job, im afraid the money is the best I’ll get in town and so many other reasons. I don’t want to look for a new job, I never thought I hated where I worked but if every shift I get super irritable and it’s hard for me to interact with customers, is that not my body telling me something? I’m trying to save up to move across the country so I can’t afford to be unemployed on top of being a full time college student. I get so embarrassed when I show my irritability because I’m a people pleaser and I hate for others to know I’m irritated but I can’t control it. I’m not sure where it’s all coming from but I’m afraid I can’t handle it and I wanted to ask if this is a normal thing servers go through? Are you guys irritable at work as well? Am I crazy or over dramatic? I don’t know what to do. Am I getting the fact that I’m good at it confused with the fact that I’m comfortable doing it?
More context: I’ve worked at this place for 4 years, it’s the only and first job I’ve had, I’m extremely comfortable with the job and the people. I haven’t been irritable until recently probably the last 2-3 months has been when it’s getting bad.

I am a 19 year old girl and I work at a small(ish) chain restaurant/bar in the PNW. It’s not super popular but if you’re from Oregon or Washington I’m sure you’ve heard of it. Either way it’s pretty much the biggest restaurant in the town I’m from, so if anything is going on in town we get insanely busy. This last weekend has been a sht show. We are constantly understaffed, I am either underwhelmed and getting sent home early from my shift with 15$ in my pocket or I’m freaking out, extremely stressed with no support and still leaving with less than what I feel like I should be making. I hear stories of people making up to 600-800 dollars on a busy night in certain restaurants and the most I’ve made is $350 on an insane night. Anyway all of the context aside, every shift I have I pretty much walk in and I’m in an ok mood but I’ve been so irritable there recently. Like today for example, again we were super understaffed and in the middle of a rush, i was wearing a white shirt and a bottle of mustard exploded on me. I started laughing and then quickly it changed from laughing to crying and the thought came to my head that I had to leave. I had so much stress built up from the weekend. I want to quit so badly but it’s the only job I’ve ever worked, I love my coworkers, im good at the job, im afraid the money is the best I’ll get in town and so many other reasons. I don’t want to look for a new job, I never thought I hated where I worked but if every shift I get super irritable and it’s hard for me to interact with customers, is that not my body telling me something? I’m trying to save up to move across the country so I can’t afford to be unemployed on top of being a full time college student. I get so embarrassed when I show my irritability because I’m a people pleaser and I hate for others to know I’m irritated but I can’t control it. I’m not sure where it’s all coming from but I’m afraid I can’t handle it and I wanted to ask if this is a normal thing servers go through? Are you guys irritable at work as well? Am I crazy or over dramatic? I don’t know what to do. Am I getting the fact that I’m good at it confused with the fact that I’m comfortable doing it?
More context: I’ve worked at this place for 4 years, it’s the only and first job I’ve had, I’m extremely comfortable with the job and the people. I haven’t been irritable until recently probably the last 2-3 months has been when it’s getting bad.