I’m in so much pain
Yall, I’m in so much pain. I work a high stress job, just got promoted and I know it’s making this worse. Didn’t even have time to celebrate, just dealing with this increasingly bad flare that started back up in January and has only gotten worse.
It’s the middle of the night and I need to get up early in the morning to prepare for a presentation that I’ll probably get flack for not finalizing earlier… when I literally have no time during actual work hours to do it.
I feel better when I sleep well, when I exercise. I know this and yet today was 6am to 10pm in front of my computer, taking calls and feeling dread. It’s gotten so bad in the evenings and when I lie down to sleep — just continuous shocks.
I just spent an exorbitant amount of money on a TMJ device too since I had hope for a hot second that this was a jaw issue. Obviously that didn’t work and now the TMJ doc is gaslighting me into thinking I didn’t clearly describe my symptoms when I absolutely talked about the shocks in appointment #1 — and he brushed me off when I said I had a TN diagnosis.
Feeling so annoyed and hopeless. No one who knows me or works with me even knows how bad it is besides my spouse since I’m always so cheery and positive. I’m so upset. This sucks so much. I have an MRI tomorrow. I don’t want to take meds again, which historically haven’t even helped. I don’t want to do surgery. I’m just so sad.
My longest no pain streak was last April to this Jan. I can’t believe I’m back here.