Why do I hate school so much?
So i had no friend in my 9th and 10th standard. Recently I got promoted to class 11th and it's so suffocating there. It feels like I'm fucking dying sitting between those shitty ass classmates. I'll cope w living alone but those people treat me differently. Like two days ago was the first day of my class 11th and i arrived early to school and sat on a desk at the back. Then I went out to roam around and when I returned I saw that my bag is moved to the next desk and where I placed it two girls are sitting there. But I didn't even have guts to confront them because it was my first day and I have no friend. I'm all energetic person at home but I'm a completely different person at school. I hate being there. I start getting nervous and anxious when things like these happen. And when I returned home I felt guilt for not confronting them and getting scared. My 10th standard experience was the same. I faced harassment and physical abuse too. Even the teachers didn't do anything about it. How to deal w these situations? Can anyone plz tell me? It's all so suffocating there. I'm thinking about doing open or online schooling. Please do advice me.
(Since my native language isn't English so apologies if there are any grammatical errors)