It's been a while actually since I last wrote. The few times I tried again I was terrified of what I was writing because I feared so much it was dogshit.
I had the opportunity of having some manuscripts read.
It sucked... Honestly I didn't feel a renewed need to write, I just felt like with revisions and revisions and revisions that what I wrote was honestly just bad and that I was making everyone present loose time. I couldn't provide what asked of me. Worst, I barely understood what was wrong with my writings. And the whole project eventually died out... A huge mess, it was nasty. 😭
So I was a bit down for a long moment but I still have the spark to write. It's always somewhere in my head. I'm not cut for pro, that's life... But I looove fanfic too badly! And I have ideas! (And I have a weird relationship with Heated Rivalry that made me wants to write every few sentences.)
For those who knows they're not all that, how you deal with it? Does it makes the act of writing any less joyous for you? Is it important in the long run?
Thanks 🫶