I've been trading on and off for 2 years now and blew up my account these past 2 weeks. I lost 14k on a 36k account. My spiral started once my job started feeling insecure due to AI so I started sizing up. Also got 2 young ones to feed. This lead to my biggest loss with 6k. I should of stepped away but I continued to revenge trade for a week straight and blew another 8k. Of course the wife isn't happy about it but shes the most upset that I lied to her about how much I lost. I came clean showing her my account. Financially we're ok but I feel horrible that I let the monster in me take control. There is this beast that comes out and I can't seem to control it and I go on these spirals. This isn't the first time this happened but last time it was 2k.
I told my wife I'm done trading but its always been my dream. I'm for sure taking a long break to reflect. If I ever do return after PDT goes away I'll keep my account small and never use leverage again. I guess I just wanted to share my story with y'all. Maybe someone could share some wisdom because I'm grieving the idea of giving up on a dream but I'm not sure if I'm just dealing with sunk cost fallacy.