My DM hates me or am I a cry baby?
A bit of context first, we are playing this campaign for about 30 sessions. I played as a wild magic sorcerer since the start and my game plan is always to use spells that have extra or unexpected effects. Chromatic orb jump, sorcerer burst extra roll, tashas mind whip, etc.
Recently i started to feel that my dm is balancing the fights too hard against me. We fought a mini boss where every round one of his multiple attacks would either paralyze me or turn me into a sheep. I took 4 actions in a combat that took 12 turns, even hiding behind a wall (full cover) didnt stop the monster aiming the attack at me. Another time we fought some mages that managed to counter every spell i tried to use with legendary actions, at level 5.
Losing turns really pisses me off but ok, maybe some fights are meant for others to shine.
Now to the last session. We are 4 level 5 players.
Last session the party decided to donate all our money to get me a barrier tattoo that would give me 18 AC, from the 11 i had, 23 with magic shield. Feeling really powerfull we departed to help a close town that was raided by demons.
On the way we get ambushed by a pack of 8 werewolf, at the first attack that hits me i do as always and ask "wait, how much was the hit? maybe i can use shield" and he says that from now on we are not saying the total attack roll anymore, something we did this entire time, and if i want to use shield i had to gamble. On the same combat i cast Hypnotic Pattern and he says i dont know if they failed or not, not even if i have anything to be concentrating on... Also new rule.
In the end we win, all 4 of us are cursed by the werewolves bite so we decide to run back to the safe town we just came from. We get ambushed again, this time by the demons that we were after. By the end we have 2 enemies up, one attacks me and i use a shield to try to negate it, still take the hit. Then the other one does an acid breath on me but now i dont have a reaction to use absorb elements so i get to 0 hit points. Of course i turn into a werewolf that instantly runs into the forest and my group cant find.
I know that the spells i choose + wild magic + metamagic can be annoying for the dm as well but i feel targeted this entire session and even a bit unfair that i died without any chance of rolling death saving throws or removing the curse. What you guys think?