u/DisastrousHoney4073

This is kind of stupid but I have struggled socially my entire life, never had any decent interactions and have only received negative ones from people throughout life. I got kicked out of the KCL gc (probably accidentally), panicked and now I’m blocked from the KCL freshers ig too. I already have a feeling I don’t belong in KCL and that I’ll be spending another 3 years counting down the days I really hope I’m wrong but idk. I won’t be surprised if some mods in the subreddit kick me for this post. I expected to not get along with a lot of people and struggle a bit but I did NOT expect to be excluded from the biggest online freshers groups in my university 5 months before stepping foot on the campus when I’ve already had people say to me that I’m “pathetic” and “weird” and never had someone be nice to me or get to know me for the past 5 years, on top of my already poor self esteem. I really am not doing well mentally atm with a levels on top too and I’m constantly not thinking straight I am not usually like this