Calorie Deficit— Getting Back On Track 💕
19F almost 20. 5’6, 211 lbs.
I am a musical theatre performer. My most recent weigh in I was 211 lbs. Obese, medically. I am also hyper-mobile, meaning my nervous system is sensitive. anxiety burdens me. Hyper-mobility also causes my foot pain; plantar fasciitis, which makes it extremely difficult to stand on stage for hours at a time and to dance for hours at a time. Being on my feet is difficult… it’s sad because I love dancing. Hyper-mobility has been a struggle for me. It is the root of my anxiety, which causes me to refrain from using the gym facilities that are available to me. I want to start swimming at the YMCA to help move around and take pressure off my joints.
Food has been a major comfort. Binge eating is a comfort. But it leaves me feeling worse than before I binged. It’s not something I consciously want to do. In the moment it feels good but the days afterward where you have to deal with the bloating and puffiness— after staying on track for so long, man. it feels like a huge setback. Not worth it.
I am getting back on track today with logging my calories. I had a 22 day streak. The first two weeks I was significantly less puffy and felt lighter on my feet. It is hard to keep the momentum up, especially if you’re not seeing huge results in the mirror. It’s also hard if you have other stressors in life.
Time to get back on track! My goal is 119 lbs. My daily calorie goal is 1800-1850. I know I can do it. I don’t want to live this life not knowing the luxury of feeling comfortable in your own skin. When I reach my goal, so much extra pressure will be taken off my joints and muscle will be easier to see. I’m so excited.
If you’ve made it this far in reading my story, congratulations! It is now officially guaranteed that we will both reach our goals in being healthy 😉🩰🍎💕