Help w upcoming appt
I’ve been in chronic pain for decades w a degenerative condition. There are surgical options, but I’m trying to manage w movement and meds as long as possible before doing surgery.
I have Kaiser in N. California, which is an integrated insurance plus provider system. It’s great for some things.. but wow, what they put me through for 10mg/day of hydrocodone! I’ve managed on this for 4 years, but now it’s not enough. I’m often short because I take an extra 5mg some days.. or I’m due for a refill, but my provider doesn’t approve it right away and I’m left hanging for a day or 3.
I can do it, but the psychological consequences are big - so much shame. When my doctor increased me 4yrs ago, he said, “Don’t come back asking for more - this is all I’ll prescribe you”.
I’ve got an appt on Monday and I’m dreading if.. I’ve been 4 days without meds, I’m in pain and so emotional. I’m sure they’re about to cut me off any day now even though I jump through all their hoops - drug tests, opioid contracts, an appt every 6m to justify my use. How do others handle this!? The shame is almost as bad as the constant pain!!