I've been trying to find some financial help from grants for the past year and a half and honestly, these foundations make it impossible for you to sign up 😭, It's like they make it as easy as possible to donate but to actually receive some help, nope
I'm so confused rn, I just beat cancer last year after going through a 23 hour surgery, I had to suffer having an ostomy, now I have diarrhea and constant nausea and I lost myself throughout the process, I don't know who I am anymore and then I just got diagnosed again, I'm a Christian, sometimes I just can't wait to pass away so I can have eternal happiness, I try my best to live my life normally, after everything I suffered, but the tumors hurt man, they hurt a lot, and I just want the pain and side effects to go away, my energy is always low, I just feel lost, I wish I could go through this without the pain , I wouldn't mind living another 5 years without pain, I just want my old body back, I was an athlete and I enjoyed being healthy, I don't drink I don't smoke I just liked having fun, I don't know what to do sometimes, I just want to drown myself in weed and just forget about everything but I'm trying to stay away from it, I want to work but It's hard too, it's so difficult, I wish I could be given a job that Would pay me decent money and that I could handle, my mental health is so messed up, I'm always stressed , And I know I can't do anything to change this , I never will be able too, it's aggressive and it's stage 4 , I won't be able to live out my dreams yk, it's ok tho, I just need to wait for heaven