I hate my sport
I’ve been running for about 13 years, all 4 years of higher school I made it to states, 2 years I made it to finals seeded to place top 3 but when the time came to race I jogged everytime simply because I did not want to race anyone. I love hard practices so it’s honestly not like I’m lazy, I was good enough in highschool to be able to run at the D1 level but I hate anything to do with track meets to the point that I don’t talk about track and I rarely watch any track related videos and if they come on my fyp I skip them. I don’t really know how to get my motivation back I still enjoy running I just really hate the competition aspect to it and if I could run in meets by myself with no competitors I would but it doesn’t work like that so I’m not sure what to do