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I don’t even know where to begin, but I just want to write this somewhere.

I graduated with my Master’s degree in Biomedical Engineering in May 2025 in the US. Like everyone else, I had dreams. I thought graduation would finally be the beginning of everything I worked for.

I stayed back and kept applying for opportunities till December 2025. Every single day was applications, resume edits, recruiter calls, LinkedIn messages, hope, rejection, silence, repeat.

Watching friends slowly get jobs while you stay stuck does something to you mentally.

But I still didn’t give up.

Then my health collapsed.

I got diagnosed with MCTD. Suddenly life became hospital visits, medications, weakness, pain, swelling, steroids, fear, and uncertainty. Everything I had planned for years started falling apart in months.

My family wanted me back home because things were getting serious.

So I traveled back alone.

That journey is something I don’t think people around me fully understand.

I was already physically weak. Mentally exhausted. Carrying the feeling that maybe I failed after all the sacrifices my parents made.

And then the world around me was in chaos.

War tensions.

Flight cancellations.

Uncertainty everywhere.

Waiting in airports not knowing if I would even make it home smoothly.

Trying to stay calm while feeling completely broken inside.

I somehow reached home in April 2026.

Now I’m back in chennai India, recovering slowly, trying to rebuild life from zero while watching the life I imagined disappear in front of me.

No job yet.

Health still unstable.

Confidence shaken.

Dreams delayed.

But one thing is still alive inside me:

I will not stop.

I did not survive all this just to quit now.

Maybe my path looks different from everyone else’s.

Maybe I’m slower right now.

Maybe life hit me harder than I expected.

But I’m still here.

Still applying.

Still trying.

Still fighting.

And honestly, sometimes surviving itself is an achievement.

If anyone else feels left behind in life right now — you’re not alone.

I don’t even know where to begin, but I just want to write this somewhere.

I graduated with my Master’s degree in Biomedical Engineering in May 2025 in the US. Like everyone else, I had dreams. I thought graduation would finally be the beginning of everything I worked for.

I stayed back and kept applying for opportunities till December 2025.

Every single day was applications, resume edits, recruiter calls, LinkedIn messages, hope, rejection, silence, repeat.

Watching friends slowly get jobs while you stay stuck does something to you mentally.

But I still didn’t give up.

Then my health collapsed.

I got diagnosed with MCTD. Suddenly life became hospital visits, medications, weakness, pain, swelling, steroids, fear, and uncertainty. Everything I had planned for years started falling apart in months.

My family wanted me back home because things were getting serious.

So I traveled back alone.

That journey is something I don’t think people around me fully understand.

I was already physically weak. Mentally exhausted. Carrying the feeling that maybe I failed after all the sacrifices my parents made.

And then the world around me was in chaos.

War tensions.

Flight cancellations.

Uncertainty everywhere.

Waiting in airports not knowing if I would even make it home smoothly.

Trying to stay calm while feeling completely broken inside.

I somehow reached home in April 2026.

Now I’m back in India, recovering slowly, trying to rebuild life from zero while watching the life I imagined disappear in front of me.

No job yet.

Health still unstable.

Confidence shaken.

Dreams delayed.

But one thing is still alive inside me:

I will not stop.

I did not survive all this just to quit now.

Maybe my path looks different from everyone else’s.

Maybe I’m slower right now.

Maybe life hit me harder than I expected.

But I’m still here.

Still applying.

Still trying.

Still fighting.

And honestly, sometimes surviving itself is an achievement.

If anyone else feels left behind in life right now — you’re not alone.