u/DraganKojicKeba

20M, strrugling with crippling depression and anxiety, just got out of NEET to work some random job with a friend. School smart, have a lot of random knowledge but incapable of doing basically anything else and hating myself 24/7. I thought that when i find a job i will idk try to maybe go to college or try to get a driver's license but the only thing i am thinking about now is how i will have money for drugs and pay my debts for drugs. I see no future for myself and i will probably be stuck all life on some dead end jobs or maybe not even that. I don't even know what would i like to do anymore my mental state is so bad i feel so behind in life and i know i am pretty young but there are so many normal stuff i strrugle with and my family is poor so i don't want them to pay for anything for me because i am failure and they had so much hope in me. How can i find a path in reality?

Juče sam se ZAPREPASTIO kolko sam retardiran jer mi je drugar deset puta pokazao kako se vezuje kesa u čvor i ja i dalje nisam mogao da uradim to, i posle tipa 15 minuta je lik samo odustao. Bukvalno zbog ovakvih stvari (a nije prvi put da tako nešto prosto ne znam) nema nade za mene kako ću raditi bilo šta ikad nema poente da živim i da se trudim ovo je bolesno keva me sto posto napravila sa kaletom u inat ćaletu iz sprdnje da vidi na šta će dete da ispadne