I’m a 30 year old male and I’ve been struggling to find my place in engineering. Ever since I graduated college I’ve been on survival mode, feeling like I’m not living to the expectations of what an engineer should be. As an engineer I am required to answer complex questions (sometimes quickly), communicate with various people, juggle multiple projects, keep track of budgets, keep track of contracts and permits, learning every little detail of each project. This becomes extremely overwhelming to the point that on some days I just do nothing because I have no clue where to start (Today is one of those days).
With that being said how do I still have a job. Well, throughout my 6 years of engineering I became pretty good at excuses, redirecting people, and thanks to the creation of AI I’ve been able to avoid making stupid mistakes.
Let’s be honest engineering is a career where your IQ definitely plays a role and I’m just not cut out for it. For those who will ask how did you get through university, well I went to my local state university which has a high acceptance rate and even then I struggled to graduate.
I’ve been telling myself, just survive until you finally get fired but that day never comes and I’m afraid I’m wasting my life constantly living in fight or flight mode.
If there’s anyone out there who’s gone through something similar, your advice with be greatly appreciated. Thank you in advance.