Growing resentment in my role
I’m an APS5 and taken on a large amount of additional work outside my normal role because another area needed support. It's gradually become a situation where I’m one of the main people handling the work, answering questions and building resources etc. However, I'm still balancing this with my original workload, as well as taking on informal more senior responsibilities/tasks while team members are acting in other positions, although their original roles all don't have acting backfill. My supervisor has openly acknowledged many times that I’m operating above level in some areas and carrying a large part of the workload. But there’s no formal acting opportunity. I feel like I've over-worked myself but now that's the expectation and it's my fault.
What’s making me most resentful is that team members at the same level are barely helping to share the workload. If I leave things, it doesn't get done, but I end up doing it in the end anyway alongside the extra responsibilities. I'm the one keeping things running smoothly in the background. If they make careless mistakes, I'm the one who rectifies it. All this work that eventually builds and builds. At this point I can't tell if I’m genuinely overloaded or whether I’ve accidentally created this situation myself and it's my fault. I wonder if I'm too sensitive to how unfair it feels and I should just carry on like they do. I'm trying so hard to not become bitter and do the bare minimum but I joined the APS to achieve outcomes for the public. I don't know if there's even a point in discussing how I feel if there isn't an acting opportunity in the near future.
How do you stop yourself becoming bitter without just pulling back and doing the bare minimum? I'm not sure at what point I keep pushing through it or if I just leave it here.