I always doubt my writing
I have been writing since I was a kid, and I've always been the girl who can write stories and has a big imagination. I started trying to write my book when I was 14, and I'm still writing and developing the book now at 18. I love the world I've created, but I can't seem to write it down. Every time I write, I write a couple of pages and then stop. I then never come back to the same piece of work and instead of continuing, I take a break from writing for weeks, only to come back and write something completely different but still with the same book idea. I look back at my writing and hate it, I think its badly written but then I show a friend, or my dad and they say that its brilliant (other than spelling and grammar because I am bad at those) everyone motivates me to continue to write but I can't get past huge writers block and self-hatred. If I am honest, i think my writing got worse during my fanfic writing era, which is funny but genuinely I think its ruined my writing. Even worse, I was the first group of kids to have access to bots who could write essays and it wasn't mainstream yet. And I think it killed my writing skills because it always caused me to doubt myself, because it was always better than my own writing, even if it was just school essays I started to think I couldn't write essays anymore. I know its bad, and im against that sort of thing now but it really has stumped me and I regret my younger self following the wave of simplicity. Does anyone have advice to stop hating my own writing and actually write? create a story that flows. I always write in seperate chunks, how do i make the chunks connect? thanks.