Anxiety about coming back to school
Hey everyone,
Just a short rant post, but I'm wondering if I am the only one feeling this way right now.
Coming back from break, I'm already dreading the thought of how much work, recruiting, and classes are going to demand. For context, I am doing a CS master's program here and came from a state school where I commuted, so I had friends already to start out. Don't get me wrong, I have done great academically. But every time I come back to campus, whether that be here or any other year of school, I get this heavy anxiety about having to do so much work and start the grind all over again.
Additionally (and this might be a part of it), I have felt that it's been much harder to make close friends here, though I know I have only been here for a semester. I actually applied to Penn for undergrad but didn't get in, so I think part of this might just be me putting other people here on a pedestal in terms of their achievements, which makes it harder to naturally connect. Also, felt my first semester similarly and didn't go out too much.
Just wanted to put this out there to see if I'm alone in this. Does anyone else deal with this kind of semester dread or imposter syndrome? How do you manage it?